After the procedure yesterday, my hair was comming out by the handfulls, so I asked Steve to shave it all off. Kali held my hand, Ken rubbed my neck, Steve shaved, I cried and the hair was offered to the beautiful oak in the back yard. It felt like I was going through an initiation; nuns shave their head too and now I have a beautiful bald head. I look pretty good. As soon as the screw holes from the halo heal, I will take a picture so all of you can see. (Don't freak out, the screw holes will heal quick..) So today is a time to do some yoga, meditate and get myself prepared for next week.
I really do not enjoy the chemo, but I have to get to a peaceful place about it because I know it will work better if I am accepting of it. Accept poison... Hmmm. Any ideas on how to do that are appreciated. Love to all, Light to all, Peace to all....Dyal Kaur (Martha)
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Chemo is one of the nastiest things you can face- but here is my take on how to accept it.
There is darkness and light in all things. The darkness is the poison- it kills healthy cells. The light is that it will also kill your cancer, bringing you to wholeness and health. Maybe meditate on that?
When I was on it last year, I don't know- it brought me to this mystical place. I think the prednisone had a lot to do with that result as well, but I was physically seeing things differently. Everything I looked at had an aura that I couldn't (and can't now) see before. I am not sure if you will have that result, as you're not likely on the same drug that I was on.
Anyway- I am continuing to hold you every day in my heart, my thoughts and my prayers. I am so glad the gamma ray knife went well! I am astounded that we have such an amazing technology.
I love you dearly, and I really hope I can see you soon.
Love,
~Jen
Martha,
We're so happy to hear Friday went well! Joe and I were thinking about you all day.
I'd like to offer my take on your concern about taking "poison" to help cure your illness. I agree, chemo IS poison, as are all drugs. Even aspirin is toxic and yet it's the first thing to take if you think you are having a heart attack because it can save your life. Some illegal drugs have the same dilemma--marijuana can be a God-send for some people with chronic pain and cocaine is still used in hospitals because it's a fantastic topical anesthetic for nasal procedures. And yet, both of these drugs are dangerous, toxic and illegal. I guess it's all just a matter of perspective.
Hope that helps! Cheryl :-)
Sweetie, We are so happy that the gamma knife went well. I am carrying you in my prayers. Chemo is a poison, but it is a poison to those nasty cancer cells. So make sure it gets them all, and leaves the healthy ones alone. Meditate on your battle, it is truely good against evil, and we are with you. God bless, Gurudaya
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