I have been thinking about how different the cycles of my life have become. When you are healthy, you never think about being sick or dying. Once the diagnosis of cancer clouds your life, every 3 months (or 6 or year...) you have to go and find out if the demon is back. I feel awesome. I do not feel sick at all, yet I wonder if the little cells are acting up. It is very disorienting and odd. I just have to live each day fully, which is what we have anyway, but it is just different now. I am running in seasonal cycles I guess.
Love to all.
About Me
- Martha
- I am a healthy, vibrant Kundalini Yoga teacher and healer (LMT) who recieved the diagnosis of Lung Cancer on January 4 of this year. This blog is to let all my freinds, students, clients, family and loved ones keep up with my progress and keep in touch.
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Blessings to you and Steve and all your beloves friends on this site. Your last posting hit home for me..... It's taken me literally five years to not have a thought, "is my body going to turn on me again?" I've lived in tremendous fear that my disease would come back; that I would go blind from it; that I would need the horrific intraoccular steroid shots, more eye surgery, oral and then intravenus chemo..... The memory of these experiences get stored in our CELLS, muscle memory we know well from yoga, and it's taken a new love in my life and a new love of myself, my health every day, love for my animals, love for my children, my yard, my flowers, my new job and especially myself in each moment..... In one respect healing was easy; in another, shifting the consciousness to complete the pattern you just finished so it is complete, finished and blessed and done to a place that you don't have to go back to is the challenge. Do-able, quite easily do-able, yet it may take some time and fenaggling (sp?) to find the space. We can all do it...and my love, joy and faith in God and in you, beloved Martha, knows you too can do it.
I LOVE YOU AND SEND YOU MANY E-HUGS. Congrats on this milestone.... Ravi Har Kaur (Ree) Goldman
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